2 posts tagged “counseling”

I'm back mostly spurred on by Eric's very direct emails and confrontation Sunday night, "You haven't posted since February!" I also happened to wake up at 5 and 5:30 this morning so I felt it was a great time to get a post in. My neck is hurting, I have some kind of issue there that is going to require some major medical thing in the future I think, but for now I am going to allow it to heal itself.

One of the amazing things about people telling me that they are reading my blog is the anxiety it creates for my posts to be good. If you are taking the time to read it then it better be worth your while. Then I can't think of anything worth your while. So I stop posting or I think of it when I can't post or write it down, so days go by and then weeks and then my friend is saying you haven't posted in 3 months!

The paralyzing effect of the good, I wonder how many have this occur in their spiritual lives. If you allow me to paraphrase CS Lewis badly, he talked about great worship and how if we begin to think about how great a worship experience is that we are in the middle of then we begin to leave the great worship experience, we can't both think about it and be in it at the same time.

I know CS Lewis did not mean that we need to stop thinking or that thinking has no place in worship. Perhaps we should not focus on ourselves during the blessing but on the God who is blessing us. The overwhleming pressure that comes with the good and thus paralyzes is brought about by a strong belief in one's talents and not in the overwhelming grace of God. "I did it" but what if I can't do it again or to the same level I did before. "I, I, I". As we say in the Bible Study class I am a part of, where is God in that sentence.

However if the focus is on God, and the production is really about God and not my own pride, maybe I can stay in the moment of God's blessing and produce.  

Have a great day and please post a comment!

Very sad day today. My friend Maryanne's grandbabby died. She was suffering from a long illness and in need of a liver transplant that I assume she never received. No words comfort an event like that. No matter how logical or theological sound an answer is to why and how, nothing will console a family from this grief but the weaping hugs of God through friends. "Weap with those who weap and mourn with those who mourn." It is the only appropriate thing to do. It really sucks.